tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4651571398483657712023-11-15T22:39:05.070-08:00DREAMIN' SCREAMIN' & SCHEMIN'rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.comBlogger65125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-43491661517096921902009-09-11T17:10:00.001-07:002009-09-11T17:16:13.122-07:00the fourth time<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh2yGALD7OFhpj8W37yq3VkG0wyYozmmP_ZI76vgJaiulhPf7C5CBYndWBM9Svrw1IDkk48mwnlcaKTPi4ogMvT9Bj9FX-rUmGIrx07Uo_T-MEfjelKM5kROB83Z5ZXnD413ucr-A0yMpZ2/s1600-h/Picture+805.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5380366896447485650" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh2yGALD7OFhpj8W37yq3VkG0wyYozmmP_ZI76vgJaiulhPf7C5CBYndWBM9Svrw1IDkk48mwnlcaKTPi4ogMvT9Bj9FX-rUmGIrx07Uo_T-MEfjelKM5kROB83Z5ZXnD413ucr-A0yMpZ2/s400/Picture+805.jpg" border="0" /></a> so here i am again,leaving for san pedro in a week.anxious and excited and in a hurry to just be there.to reconnect with some dear people,to avoid past mistakes with a couple,to meet new friends.i always feel that the options are limitless once i enter the country's airspace.i never know what will happen next.i know that this is a mindset that is possible anywhere,but it overtakes me there.note to self:find ways to embrace that state when i return.i will live there.repeat repeat repeat.<br /><div></div>rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-77548416754876441372009-05-15T09:44:00.000-07:002009-05-15T09:49:19.925-07:00time out<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhsIaCDAyEm9EzivEFDIbblJMCFEPraTyxS8QgkVoHSZurCeV4v3YCtnBdnd59f9tJWvle3cdseMqr5igrq0kWz98kRDyTZuSAeFCwf4EXEEEmqRn40u5ZT_R0Wmn1hzt7FC7FXYAWwqmiC/s1600-h/kate_gosselins_short_haircut205.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5336093645687531442" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 225px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhsIaCDAyEm9EzivEFDIbblJMCFEPraTyxS8QgkVoHSZurCeV4v3YCtnBdnd59f9tJWvle3cdseMqr5igrq0kWz98kRDyTZuSAeFCwf4EXEEEmqRn40u5ZT_R0Wmn1hzt7FC7FXYAWwqmiC/s400/kate_gosselins_short_haircut205.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjbqa-8IXM-JTfLRT4n68Bz_yiy11yWO2FrDWmtRnax1OctBmU7Tpg2pZn5kn3dEN1kLs5uubxqmIvrIfoL5YDnW3XZsizlRr_8KrsPTCTNiY7SGkP9UqgQADvHgE3DiN0b90xBU8jNIRwu/s1600-h/35087a.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5336093644499868786" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 144px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 218px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjbqa-8IXM-JTfLRT4n68Bz_yiy11yWO2FrDWmtRnax1OctBmU7Tpg2pZn5kn3dEN1kLs5uubxqmIvrIfoL5YDnW3XZsizlRr_8KrsPTCTNiY7SGkP9UqgQADvHgE3DiN0b90xBU8jNIRwu/s400/35087a.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><div>love denzel,especially in mississippi masala.can't stand kate gosselin or her horrendous cordova haircut.stay tuned for way more substance</div></div>rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-63994548354174428962009-04-03T16:47:00.001-07:002009-04-03T16:56:50.027-07:00big time dreaming<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhYIVjdViVWu6gUDdvczoBNeOzuyAidOdKsjlt7_YwnPLIUYPzuBwTQoDQx9mDRuQ8CMssaJsLA-33yJ7WEi4kTEQb7fM8P3EtpLoq69jZLADjZwkuhljSCgqudejB9VyWCvtXn7DSP0Myv/s1600-h/misc+077.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5320616581416103490" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhYIVjdViVWu6gUDdvczoBNeOzuyAidOdKsjlt7_YwnPLIUYPzuBwTQoDQx9mDRuQ8CMssaJsLA-33yJ7WEi4kTEQb7fM8P3EtpLoq69jZLADjZwkuhljSCgqudejB9VyWCvtXn7DSP0Myv/s400/misc+077.jpg" /></a> i had an incredible dream yesterday afternoon.i dreamt that i was arriving for vacation in san pedro and was admiring this totally cute stucco house that was painted olive green and all the doorways were rounded.it had heart pine floors.i loved this house and somehow i realized that my mother had secretly bought it for me using the money she had been saving since i was a baby.i was overwhelmed and full of joy so i went looking for people i knew to tell them that i was not going to have to leave,since i had a house.a man there who, in real life, had been the source of some pain and disappointment was ecstatic to see me and smiled so big i thought his face would break.the love he had for me was obvious and in the dream,i knew he was a dear and loyal friend.there were 4 people living in the downstairs part of the house and the woman offered me a choice of four food items-she had told me she was danish,so i went with the pastry.she gave me a nod and said that i had chosen wisely.i snorkeled in a little creek near my home and saw a lionfish.it took me a few minutes to realize it was a dream.i woke up so happy.i am believing it is a glimpse of my future life in belize.<br /><div></div>rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-86092978184696265172009-03-23T16:21:00.000-07:002009-03-23T16:23:47.229-07:00sunday dinner<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5agtyTZ-1wMbqJ7Y8SUfRmzIgtVdVcP86bB0NTaHyRbaeUsD5A2ItqoZBAtftiq1WBdDB3z_hEhAMGhQBrBXCb00JOcqFGpupHgImxtqP_KeWyub8P6iSFqRZMTw_oZnWMei24yVxTC4P/s1600-h/IMG_2596.JPG"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5316527750986140082" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5agtyTZ-1wMbqJ7Y8SUfRmzIgtVdVcP86bB0NTaHyRbaeUsD5A2ItqoZBAtftiq1WBdDB3z_hEhAMGhQBrBXCb00JOcqFGpupHgImxtqP_KeWyub8P6iSFqRZMTw_oZnWMei24yVxTC4P/s400/IMG_2596.JPG" /></a> i just invited myself over to my belizean memphian friend donia's house for sunday dinner this weekend.i am definitely feeling better<br /><div></div>rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-59071946158191854032009-03-23T16:12:00.001-07:002009-03-23T16:20:38.607-07:00better<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiDs2u-FUvLCm88q73Boej7oIVN_KLNvgC9QR3lbLPpJDaQU_LBA2D1HJhNRSoMlJd5Sdb21sPy5isTjj6P3oSBEpwI69DlzXJT6olfUd8m7GnjxvTLs1saam0zXHSqUB_abYp3fTWARZsv/s1600-h/misc+095.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 400px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5316525651851277330" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiDs2u-FUvLCm88q73Boej7oIVN_KLNvgC9QR3lbLPpJDaQU_LBA2D1HJhNRSoMlJd5Sdb21sPy5isTjj6P3oSBEpwI69DlzXJT6olfUd8m7GnjxvTLs1saam0zXHSqUB_abYp3fTWARZsv/s400/misc+095.jpg" /></a><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhejZUkdds2618YcnF0zLNLsKrAH7cs3xhib98QV0l1jflTgSuj_GYRLToMarPu8ln1Wzzm1l3fvY9h4-mK1NFPTE9RTRu-xIRG4xgFwRY4CnGbe8r7qaFKqFFnRXp9NYVja-N6xO-iGh_z/s1600-h/misc+091.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5316525643849336482" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhejZUkdds2618YcnF0zLNLsKrAH7cs3xhib98QV0l1jflTgSuj_GYRLToMarPu8ln1Wzzm1l3fvY9h4-mK1NFPTE9RTRu-xIRG4xgFwRY4CnGbe8r7qaFKqFFnRXp9NYVja-N6xO-iGh_z/s400/misc+091.jpg" /></a> i am officially feeling better.thank you god,universe and the prayers and good thoughts of my dear friends.i am relieved.i am not going crazy,or losing my mind.i am so human,and needy and emotional.i think writing,getting things out of my head,makes all the difference.i will try not to forget that.i love being under the water,just floating and observing.that is the only time when my mind is truly free and without worry,totally living in the moment.now how do i replicate that for the 9 months i will not be in the ocean....<br /><br /><div></div></div>rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-68859719675388274182009-03-18T17:06:00.001-07:002009-03-18T17:14:22.875-07:00dysthymia<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjSczXw6NrIAWNj95bL74uLNKbUyOGkDpQgx0CEriXH6xaeEclvxX7KW4_GuGuUUfjMfi-T5IDSuej36dqo59r5r-GaDlOtXXabOFOuWp_tJu0TJAOaeFJLelM0blTxpygsCBRVW0KXTslg/s1600-h/misc+039.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5314684062367704226" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjSczXw6NrIAWNj95bL74uLNKbUyOGkDpQgx0CEriXH6xaeEclvxX7KW4_GuGuUUfjMfi-T5IDSuej36dqo59r5r-GaDlOtXXabOFOuWp_tJu0TJAOaeFJLelM0blTxpygsCBRVW0KXTslg/s400/misc+039.jpg" /></a><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj_hPaKRT7PZpU4M1K9bUca4B4MdTcmqMt6tPEkE-IpPCKH1bxH3wHRY3jlVv_LGYok1K_PzZo_4gp_6Y2WgDPZU5rS88-lYNA1E4N3skr53eeEZN1WrHaGtIswkcuVOnchf6wFROwWNTRf/s1600-h/misc+016.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 400px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5314684063951226354" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj_hPaKRT7PZpU4M1K9bUca4B4MdTcmqMt6tPEkE-IpPCKH1bxH3wHRY3jlVv_LGYok1K_PzZo_4gp_6Y2WgDPZU5rS88-lYNA1E4N3skr53eeEZN1WrHaGtIswkcuVOnchf6wFROwWNTRf/s400/misc+016.jpg" /></a><br /><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjOx8_CMWH7iCbFeNvf84dwzh2ED9m7fWgXMHUWjHd9V6H76n5_Y5pcsHiSAtW0uDd3gafnnJdHZeqf0WWHWf4qE9gQbRiQ73FAMua5ur2Zv7ro_Q_eJcJ9DYkUKxRsoa4AyNtCGyGTuOuZ/s1600-h/misc+037.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 400px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5314684060403547698" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjOx8_CMWH7iCbFeNvf84dwzh2ED9m7fWgXMHUWjHd9V6H76n5_Y5pcsHiSAtW0uDd3gafnnJdHZeqf0WWHWf4qE9gQbRiQ73FAMua5ur2Zv7ro_Q_eJcJ9DYkUKxRsoa4AyNtCGyGTuOuZ/s400/misc+037.jpg" /></a> i experience a pretty complete major depressive episode after i return from belize.every time.i think there are a lot of reasons:i actually "date" people there(loose term but close enough),so i get some strong emotional stuff going on in me-so then there's the loss of that relationship,inevitably once i get on that little plane and the realizations that the men i have dated don't care much about me anyway/<br />also i open myself up to people in ways i don't here.i'm not happy here so i don't give off that vibe and draw good people to me/with the help of a good friend,i think it all boils down to belize reminds me that my life is not very full here.and that it is my own damn fault.i am most conflicted because i want to move,but i realize my issues won't go away,they will move with me.i have great hope that the ocean will soothe me,like it always does,and absorb my tears,and provide great relief.now what.......................<br /><br /><div></div></div></div>rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-73527706885849092552009-03-13T08:58:00.000-07:002009-03-13T09:12:40.940-07:00love comes in many forms<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgkBv3BDQqy4qA2jyv63sCD0n3yOO20FOCHH2yGUnwNKsmWkuTSt9mI7uV1-rvdSYqA2ArowWz-BZqseRixT9B_fkfeuiODQJ1OWXuirNm2CjqR5r8pXEs3Hzkr693XV60Cvwse0y89PKSm/s1600-h/28687682_BelizeCityAirport.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5312705145043379490" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgkBv3BDQqy4qA2jyv63sCD0n3yOO20FOCHH2yGUnwNKsmWkuTSt9mI7uV1-rvdSYqA2ArowWz-BZqseRixT9B_fkfeuiODQJ1OWXuirNm2CjqR5r8pXEs3Hzkr693XV60Cvwse0y89PKSm/s400/28687682_BelizeCityAirport.jpg" /></a><br /><div>thank you jet of jet's bar,for dragging me out of my sadness last week at the belize city airport,literally leading me to the bar,where you suggested i have a rum punch and a hot dog with everything on the hot dog........thank you for giving me a sweet kiss on my neck(you are about 2 feet shorter than i am)and telling me that i am beautiful.very sweet and kind sir,sorry that i did not let you get close to "my girls",i figured you had a day ahead of you full of lots of other girls of all shapes,sizes and gravity-related issues.</div>rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-77674712867760440362009-03-09T16:20:00.000-07:002009-03-09T16:28:36.251-07:00i am so very very sorry,mr. boxfish<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjFkImoEAGIW2b3fMOQZigav9Uhk1bVLHsAHxeXUcgRcn_kSusvFZz-2DFiz4hSlkAlu42q-K3wQZOpC4LJQbPovM3d_mmiLRUTLKe4jH6y2RSWy5LCHgM5VhXpDqQq1HjO3U34tYcXvLIM/s1600-h/trunkfish5rJENNIFER.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 294px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5311333961897340594" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjFkImoEAGIW2b3fMOQZigav9Uhk1bVLHsAHxeXUcgRcn_kSusvFZz-2DFiz4hSlkAlu42q-K3wQZOpC4LJQbPovM3d_mmiLRUTLKe4jH6y2RSWy5LCHgM5VhXpDqQq1HjO3U34tYcXvLIM/s400/trunkfish5rJENNIFER.jpg" /></a><br /><div>last tuesday at sunset i was walking north on the beach in san pedro.one of my favorite things to do is sit on docks and watch what is going on underneath me.so fascinating and amazing!so i had been sitting on one dock watching the fish and these people from another dock waved to me a couple of times,so i felt it would be polite to visit their dock.a local fisherman paddled his kayak up and told one man that he had conch for him.i noticed a fish in the bottom of the kayak that was beautiful and asked him why it was there.he picked it up and plopped it on the dock and announced that it was a shellfish and that it would be delicious to eat.so i looked at this fish,dying before my eyes and so very beautiful and expressive and my first instinct was to grab it and toss it back into it's home.now,not only would the dock owners had been royally pissed but the fisherman would have been out of some money.i sat there paralyzed watching this fish,not knowing what to do.i decided to leave because i was truly very sad for this sweet fish.while drifting off to sleep that night i sat up in bed,and only wished that i had offered to BUY the fish,then i could have thrown him back.i felt bad about this for days afterwards.i took a picture of him but i felt it was morbid so i erased it.i am so sorry mr. boxfish</div>rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-24211976766614303292009-03-08T18:39:00.001-07:002009-03-08T18:40:22.009-07:00these men reminded me that i am still an artist<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjqnufJx8kho3aWg-irHxxw619nWioD6lBVsOgw42WC7-vujol8wkze9W0kk1mfOskz69KNCj5iBBafWm2x9QLjpsSACPPa3vHMxeU6AbSZvGyiyOowVvR2en7ySb9hiaHQ-_1O4AS180T1/s1600-h/IMG_2839.JPG"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5310996853633408418" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjqnufJx8kho3aWg-irHxxw619nWioD6lBVsOgw42WC7-vujol8wkze9W0kk1mfOskz69KNCj5iBBafWm2x9QLjpsSACPPa3vHMxeU6AbSZvGyiyOowVvR2en7ySb9hiaHQ-_1O4AS180T1/s400/IMG_2839.JPG" /></a><br /><div></div>rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-36220117329673379702009-03-08T16:53:00.001-07:002009-03-08T17:49:22.578-07:00recovery,continued......<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjnVTippPMHgzr8CDWUMqO2-Xru1czo-Cik6Tbcxln6xrWu6ZS69-y2YChJtR6YG5fhM6nVtr5_kTEris-5-_jZeDDD7fiiyRLQqgL7ZISlBzV116iaEuQVQiz02EOT32DJkRqmUOKohFlD/s1600-h/stanley.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 397px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 400px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5310983096571277106" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjnVTippPMHgzr8CDWUMqO2-Xru1czo-Cik6Tbcxln6xrWu6ZS69-y2YChJtR6YG5fhM6nVtr5_kTEris-5-_jZeDDD7fiiyRLQqgL7ZISlBzV116iaEuQVQiz02EOT32DJkRqmUOKohFlD/s400/stanley.jpg" /></a><br /><div>ok so i have been obviously terribly down and nonverbal since my return.i am,literally,too sad to speak.so bear with me.i miss san pedro,my friends,the food and the reef and some fish.when my first boyfriend and i broke up,my dear friend brad gave me this poem by alice walker.every time i am having a hard time with a man i find myself turning to this and it helps me.i have shared it with many lady friends.it's time for an alice walker break!</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>Did This Happen to Your Mother?</div><br /><div>Did Your Sister Throw Up a Lot?</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>I love a man who is not worth </div><br /><div>my love.</div><br /><div>Did this happen to your mother?</div><br /><div>Did your grandmother wake up</div><br /><div>for no good reason</div><br /><div>in the middle of the night?</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>I thought love could be controlled.</div><br /><div>It cannot.</div><br /><div>Only behavior can be controlled.</div><br /><div>By biting your tongue purple</div><br /><div>rather than speak.</div><br /><div>Mauling your lips.</div><br /><div>Obliterating his number</div><br /><div>too thoroughly</div><br /><div>to be able to phone.</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>Love has made me sick.</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>Did your sister throw up a lot?</div><br /><div>Did your cousin complain </div><br /><div>of a painful knot</div><br /><div>in her back?</div><br /><div>Did your aunt always </div><br /><div>seem to have something else</div><br /><div>troubling her mind?</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>I thought love would adapt itself</div><br /><div>to my needs</div><br /><div>But needs grow too fast;</div><br /><div>they come up like weeds.</div><br /><div>Through cracks in the conversation.</div><br /><div>Through sliences in the dark.</div><br /><div>Through everything you thought was concrete.</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>Such needful love has to be chopped out</div><br /><div>or forced to wilt back,</div><br /><div>poisoned by disapproval</div><br /><div>from it's own soil.</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>This is bad news,for the conservationist.</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>My hand shakes before this killing.</div><br /><div>My stomach sits jumpy in my chest. My chest is the Grand Canyon</div><br /><div>sprawled empty</div><br /><div>over the world</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>Whoever he is,he is not worth all this.</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>And I will never</div><br /><div>unclench my teeth long enough</div><br /><div>to tell him so.</div><br /><br /><br /><br />above is a photo of one of the dearest,most adoring men in my life,F.S. Fitzgerald of Inverness,Mississippi.If he had his way there would never have been a need for me to console myself with the above poem......one of the kindest,gentlest souls ever.we were in the cotton field behind his house and i do remember when this was snapped,and the sound of the stalks breaking as he walked me thru the field...<br /><div></div>rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-3169006801693301422009-03-06T17:22:00.001-08:002009-03-06T17:28:33.563-08:00recovery<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiZkTGLUQgt-Zw7PrpZolYu_aHhcC_SREjjRgUaB1W9H60QXuHwuvgye0ty1EYDccSnBzQx_FvdSoZkHgbxaJrzs44nCtZfxSQRbsNNGHTPdpCsIPWQdOBXUQFkTDjwdplJqGhF9_X-82fl/s1600-h/IMG_2670.JPG"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5310251046995434994" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiZkTGLUQgt-Zw7PrpZolYu_aHhcC_SREjjRgUaB1W9H60QXuHwuvgye0ty1EYDccSnBzQx_FvdSoZkHgbxaJrzs44nCtZfxSQRbsNNGHTPdpCsIPWQdOBXUQFkTDjwdplJqGhF9_X-82fl/s400/IMG_2670.JPG" /></a><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjc5pmbfpVgL3OoRnDMoODjlFXLSUXMJhOUX1mxw_t0nbe8aAt_t1bn2eipVQ-24wKJBAMAG1PFNNRLrkB9d2y2uxbAFLuhC_hei6oirpR_4rSPPpzeUJdwAV8NIvXSX0XMoRI0ZtllNvv-/s1600-h/IMG_2728.JPG"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5310251042089765922" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjc5pmbfpVgL3OoRnDMoODjlFXLSUXMJhOUX1mxw_t0nbe8aAt_t1bn2eipVQ-24wKJBAMAG1PFNNRLrkB9d2y2uxbAFLuhC_hei6oirpR_4rSPPpzeUJdwAV8NIvXSX0XMoRI0ZtllNvv-/s400/IMG_2728.JPG" /></a><br /><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjPkxM9d8KIQiQPWpd8PqXdkKlra54qKpJoKQ1GyfK7Ke-n0fDBhJQV_JOSYoZtv06i2QnrsEi2AKKm1C0f-TaVgmxnTewkm_DsnqZKDZSN7NEQU9oiYy7EllmxtaCv2LSk-aUIn2uXzxy5/s1600-h/IMG_2775.JPG"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5310251039972747698" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjPkxM9d8KIQiQPWpd8PqXdkKlra54qKpJoKQ1GyfK7Ke-n0fDBhJQV_JOSYoZtv06i2QnrsEi2AKKm1C0f-TaVgmxnTewkm_DsnqZKDZSN7NEQU9oiYy7EllmxtaCv2LSk-aUIn2uXzxy5/s400/IMG_2775.JPG" /></a> i have much to talk about.as jerri blank would scream "i got somethin to saaaaaaaaaaay",but i'm not quite ready,still processing and reflecting and crying.i will tell you i am completely in love with all types of trunkfish.....and a special filefish who resides under ramon's dock.if you see him tell him i miss him terribly<br /><br /><br /><div></div></div></div>rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-72441227236245534182009-02-16T14:26:00.000-08:002009-02-16T14:35:52.498-08:00belize<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5ZD3ggCV9t3N1rPF8PlhnNwOX86SLX6p0XZkMiQovyB_BY-cwq2jfiVIn_eTNkABgvcHgLXF22GnEnatqW-8zF5v_3QexGTWjNeXLFSX6AYg7bZQxzbj17-80BdR8mdSg4cPkgR6cjYFX/s1600-h/belize+08+136.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5303527187938088610" style="DISPLAY: block; 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MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 130px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 97px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiUShAgTbYi9liBzc_-H2fWvi34mst1eKJ9ZGZy0XGMU8TmW1zAM6jWkLN38sX8fk4oGtXcDIcDqkNF3dlti1wASkCSMUo6DOCcHQpwyiGZCdVBuHL7tTtJ3hwpVmJZxtEfSP0MNuCQe27e/s400/s507274719_1101886_870.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><div>i'm going back in 3 days.open to love in it's many forms but with my heart more protected,having learned the same lesson again.i will get married to myself,laugh with friends,bask in the beauty,eat "sunday dinners" every day and on and on and on.so much to do before i leave,but am smiling all the while.</div></div></div>rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-88550291004539429992008-12-23T12:02:00.000-08:002008-12-23T12:03:18.717-08:00facebooki have neglected my blog because i am obsessed with facebook!rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-86656443436093530832008-11-21T18:16:00.000-08:002008-11-21T18:22:56.240-08:00halloween<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgVUtM9i85cZq2A-dWFUvo6eKHZIVMXmAjjuYri6JeJeY2PE9Reqb0Lne01wdFyPQBgqDaW3tqcS2s6hpVR0lz86WMEv3O5YVI_eeXIXs0kbEi8drW_Aqwjt_B6my5XOKXgfNLzHJ8BFOga/s1600-h/IMG_1771.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5271300554739245362" style="DISPLAY: block; 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MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhutDvzfUsFaEywLQVG04YOWsX36R5aHgOJCUj3Oa2GJwhuu3W_Tf8_pv3tSOxDKC_9aNWpDrcGzBpaxE0-t7uwR_SxgaUYjLcthCHCzFrNhKhIgZAVRkB7-BnUim5mEg6_ZYo1ahrCjPqE/s400/IMG_1773.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><div></div></div></div>rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-28788088574159946932008-11-14T20:11:00.000-08:002008-11-14T20:18:40.878-08:00<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhy-0oLAIIwi7ScrOh8dbn1zcl40vvUxmBt0_wlPVLrnco3T_AUj6sLEEzdh2mkTsjPVlgmfjINOqDcxEGeXZrZt3KjHUoQsr0rgH7cWkod-wK0V706PAeZR7XOqPg3bcNwUaREsJZihX0b/s1600-h/IMG_1656.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5268733000453063538" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhy-0oLAIIwi7ScrOh8dbn1zcl40vvUxmBt0_wlPVLrnco3T_AUj6sLEEzdh2mkTsjPVlgmfjINOqDcxEGeXZrZt3KjHUoQsr0rgH7cWkod-wK0V706PAeZR7XOqPg3bcNwUaREsJZihX0b/s400/IMG_1656.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiLcqP5OCW7I89tGqYXmakuq-ltNyuG8Aa-JLnil8EJSz7aBiIFCFo-P4o5P9-tOpSfyTim0uPeY8ah0bM389MNt_uiW9Hfe_w8RYwBeedBMnJYd6zOo4aKukcRKWZU_MmDC7TOM2N95XT5/s1600-h/IMG_1637.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5268732995451233058" style="DISPLAY: block; 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MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhJ0wVirePfqmD66c5bM0DxTkEIzFqHIOz_yQhNSrQJy6awvAFgx8LfW-N3Ez0Q11iBRrrz_TzC4SpuK2HXDbN3x1hp8mM4sqxhIztEyJd2NC9akKUytwCvrfYD-3tt9n8wmHbClWpvqoVS/s400/IMG_1695.JPG" border="0" /></a><br />a sampling of the past couple of weeks.my wimpy pigtails are now gone,replaced by something resembling ellen degeneres' hair now.not bad.but i still worry i look like a boy-see past posts containing garfield cake for one of several sources of the fear.look how cute cleo is-i like the joel-peter witkin type blurred cleo.my car.and last but not least,</div><div>l'baby(brad gets all the credit for this perfect name)<br /><br /><br /><div></div></div></div></div>rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-37264363123907474422008-11-07T17:39:00.000-08:002008-11-07T17:43:48.822-08:00yes it really happened!!!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjKcJzJ0_DYGJI2K1EB_pQFGH_RlPLRAFuM_EGQDVhOCX4ZmWfh9l6GTk_9080o6lb5JWXkdED3dvi0L0eJn0NBqLnpuRaxtJHX0706AhCTDjJUKqviTSRIFjlCwVxRQdj1gkiYhx-2Vb8t/s1600-h/commercial+appeal.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5266095655261237042" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 82px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 150px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjKcJzJ0_DYGJI2K1EB_pQFGH_RlPLRAFuM_EGQDVhOCX4ZmWfh9l6GTk_9080o6lb5JWXkdED3dvi0L0eJn0NBqLnpuRaxtJHX0706AhCTDjJUKqviTSRIFjlCwVxRQdj1gkiYhx-2Vb8t/s400/commercial+appeal.jpg" border="0" /></a> i am still in shock.i still get goosebumps remembering tuesday night around 10:30pm when we finally began to believe that things could change.i just really have love in my heart for him and all that he believes in.oh and a note to the mccain(less than 10 total)supporters in my life:he does have a u.s birth certificate(duh),he is not a muslim,and wow there were no riots at all,only joyous celebrations.boo ya!<br /><div></div>rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-85917592951697767322008-11-04T16:56:00.000-08:002008-11-04T17:04:36.932-08:00one sign that i need to move to belize<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjoDWfH3RKwdsgzgz3XjLZvvqTm_L3KfYlWtC6VXLJgQS6OGqyWKTIxcilRjaV3L11I47bc3ZpnKw5ZJhnuY_ihjfu5SmbMuMH6vJtBxeatoqUpTJMIavJuOke6N8wzVv_v6A-KguP0TWIp/s1600-h/IMG_1494.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5264973008875239490" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjoDWfH3RKwdsgzgz3XjLZvvqTm_L3KfYlWtC6VXLJgQS6OGqyWKTIxcilRjaV3L11I47bc3ZpnKw5ZJhnuY_ihjfu5SmbMuMH6vJtBxeatoqUpTJMIavJuOke6N8wzVv_v6A-KguP0TWIp/s400/IMG_1494.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><div></div>rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-68973089794339467662008-10-29T17:09:00.000-07:002008-10-29T17:11:36.821-07:00golden rays<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhYbKpH_dO20X1x2771s96Z7p2lG6ptNSbIB_jijCYJpihLbGR5ysaPPp16391GdgZ2fuWAJU7zM3wqjsi6pKCCPK4iTIdyb24KENi1Jdw2aoKTBoxVMU0QaAoW5ECdH1nTYU3g7bdz5C-U/s1600-h/golden+rays+2.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5262732623058076786" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 268px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhYbKpH_dO20X1x2771s96Z7p2lG6ptNSbIB_jijCYJpihLbGR5ysaPPp16391GdgZ2fuWAJU7zM3wqjsi6pKCCPK4iTIdyb24KENi1Jdw2aoKTBoxVMU0QaAoW5ECdH1nTYU3g7bdz5C-U/s400/golden+rays+2.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEib3j6-83hfR4celaEIWXnvfKrs_wQiewrPH8wiMuWl4PST0EWb6csMdETMggTlW-YrJvl_SbWa2iTYLRwapXqNXGkLh8qeySMwsqdaeuD_5__OMh4ZJNBXCJq4eAy8Km0hOzTUv6GibENk/s1600-h/golden+rays.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5262732626616514258" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 268px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEib3j6-83hfR4celaEIWXnvfKrs_wQiewrPH8wiMuWl4PST0EWb6csMdETMggTlW-YrJvl_SbWa2iTYLRwapXqNXGkLh8qeySMwsqdaeuD_5__OMh4ZJNBXCJq4eAy8Km0hOzTUv6GibENk/s400/golden+rays.jpg" border="0" /></a> i am in awe of these images.i want to go there but i have not been able to find out where-still checking.<br /><br /><div></div></div>rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-65317005214405921012008-10-14T17:02:00.000-07:002008-10-14T17:11:53.722-07:00i hate politics,but......<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEinnVFvBKE12LCeYYZ21Xx1umiZ6BE46xdcNtjxZ0cXDuaTfAJdeWkMzIDT2vzm941g98IirxA40S1d-PskjixHKU8xVCjgwMlNkS0tLRzw3RmGB8NK21-UhbNz1e5NeFMAJxYMreZA9C6z/s1600-h/mccain.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5257166222295766930" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEinnVFvBKE12LCeYYZ21Xx1umiZ6BE46xdcNtjxZ0cXDuaTfAJdeWkMzIDT2vzm941g98IirxA40S1d-PskjixHKU8xVCjgwMlNkS0tLRzw3RmGB8NK21-UhbNz1e5NeFMAJxYMreZA9C6z/s400/mccain.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>i decided to put my obama bumpersticker on my car today.i am so tired of mccain supporters telling me how "scared" i should be about what will happen to this country if obama gets elected.a co-worker drove by my car and he decided to share his opinions.</div><br /><div>ignorant:"that better be a mccain sticker"</div><br /><div>me:"people like you are the reason i have decided to put this sticker on my car.i would NEVER say anything like that to you"</div><br /><div>ignorant:"well i just hope he does not win,this country will be in biiiig trouble"this was said in a southern drawl and he drove off before i could respond.actually that was probably good because i would have probably said something mean.</div><div>i wish all the mccain people that have annoyed me would realize that:</div><div>a)obama lovers tend to be rebellious by nature and </div><div>b)by constantly preaching to us you will only make us hate you more</div><div> </div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div>rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-20352570550997832952008-10-10T07:16:00.000-07:002008-10-10T07:20:34.157-07:00it's been a long time......<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjqAd6GutTXFIiTPzEPRZ7B2MFid5_iluxIaYrD3YVOxun6zPK5ZwFVu3XSM_yq9Hnld_cNkw3SpvLM9LPXKL8tQhpQUEgTkWyOSf6KAMJGry2Q6zqcKLlamu4HPpLyzd2JpODpnXGOB4PF/s1600-h/belize+08+556.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5255529565735602306" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjqAd6GutTXFIiTPzEPRZ7B2MFid5_iluxIaYrD3YVOxun6zPK5ZwFVu3XSM_yq9Hnld_cNkw3SpvLM9LPXKL8tQhpQUEgTkWyOSf6KAMJGry2Q6zqcKLlamu4HPpLyzd2JpODpnXGOB4PF/s400/belize+08+556.jpg" border="0" /></a> sorry folks,i moved.that is my excuse.will be posting regularly again soon but for now,enjoy this pic of the best bird in the world with the most sensitive and sweet 6 year old in the world,my dear christopher....<br /><div></div>rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-1595414709155728792008-08-18T16:17:00.000-07:002008-08-18T16:27:43.014-07:00belizean serendipityuntil yesterday,it had been been 3 months since i had eaten the most wonderful combination of foods ever(rice and beans,stewed chicken,fried plantains,potato salad=traditional sunday dinner in belize).my friend wilhemina always gets a t shirt from wherever i travel.i don't travel much so i think she has 4 total(bahamas,grand cayman,2 from belize)she was wearing her "i love belize" shirt where she works and a lady told her that she was from belize.i met this lady last week.her family is from altun ha-the village is called "lucky strike"and she has relatives in san pedro.she invited me over for dinner yesterday and her family watched me eat and cry and exclaim the deliciousness of the food and how much it adds to my belize ennui(that is my not being there).another thing i remembered yesterday is my observation that it is typical for these very masculine and macho belizean men to admit to,and even be unashamedly proud of music that,in this country,would be considered quite sissy.when in san pedro at a bar where i was the only woman,the men were completely grooving to celine dion(?!?)yesterday the males in the family were in the garage playing pool listening(very loudly)to what i recognized as air supply's greatest hits with some leo sayer mixed in.this is yet another fascinating aspect of belizean culture.i will now remove my cultural anthropologists hat and search for my dinner tonight.sadly, it won't be rice and beans but i am looking forward to another sunday dinner with the leslie family!!!!rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-69988379264977872792008-08-13T16:52:00.000-07:002008-08-13T17:20:56.174-07:00furry sings the blues<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiCVplGkKZhbF53yvEoEUKAaLAt7vZFv-OqpeaR5wwMYB2CyDX-ylSEqhvSGnnTJqqF6BQKZj2ZJ5gDAWdHqVkvHuFeoFb8EW_S_tqOcYiKSztuKsGDAoWCwRpCFaiXHlReR5ByLgBTqphM/s1600-h/misc+079.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5234161048433213330" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiCVplGkKZhbF53yvEoEUKAaLAt7vZFv-OqpeaR5wwMYB2CyDX-ylSEqhvSGnnTJqqF6BQKZj2ZJ5gDAWdHqVkvHuFeoFb8EW_S_tqOcYiKSztuKsGDAoWCwRpCFaiXHlReR5ByLgBTqphM/s400/misc+079.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhgexHil_5SUGpCY2RzdJbzZmoXM15sH4dgTGFf7tcr3B8N44rBg1XYcR7sjs2iO_ro8QsBoNvY9Bdrgfvop-8qZ-tDXFPDE9tQCphlzrcd2xw3Ckq3M67gk_YWY791DXfR7P9yHBuwVZ5F/s1600-h/misc+078.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5234160159766186338" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhgexHil_5SUGpCY2RzdJbzZmoXM15sH4dgTGFf7tcr3B8N44rBg1XYcR7sjs2iO_ro8QsBoNvY9Bdrgfvop-8qZ-tDXFPDE9tQCphlzrcd2xw3Ckq3M67gk_YWY791DXfR7P9yHBuwVZ5F/s400/misc+078.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><div>that song is playing on the jazz station.hejira always kind of bored/fascinated me at the same time-or is it off of mingus?or off the hissing of summer lawns?gee i need to brush up on my joni.....<br />today was interesting.a client noticed a duck sitting on some rocks near the clinic.along with much help from some guys emptying trash in a nearby dumpster,the bird was eventually taken to the nearest pond.actually,the same pond that granny took our beloved duck,bigfoot, to when he got way to big to run around(and poop)all over her house.she always enjoyed telling the story of the next time we visited that pond and we called his name,how he came running to greet us.unfortunately i have no memory of that-it was perhaps to brilliant for me to remember.<br />the above card was the most genuine sympathy card i have ever received.children don't mince words.it was picked out especially for me by my favorite 6 year old.his mother said he listened to all the cards in the aisle before deciding on this one.it plays the horrendous song kokomo,but the message is true and beautiful.he said it looks like my pictures of belize..</div></div>rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-27534485456033989202008-08-12T17:20:00.000-07:002008-08-12T17:28:20.407-07:00see you later,isaac...<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEizKNPLKkV0GpLBGWo3HBGtXW6Wc3Q98NeJv_RRLEngjJFf819NNziHT2ftWsomGqfI4yosq8M4ejZwv52tw5fsknPpzgsDXiOgFYxygRTeKYDV8nwpl6Vew19C-D8iefHsu_Vi2NVWcvh_/s1600-h/issac+2.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5233790959839082466" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEizKNPLKkV0GpLBGWo3HBGtXW6Wc3Q98NeJv_RRLEngjJFf819NNziHT2ftWsomGqfI4yosq8M4ejZwv52tw5fsknPpzgsDXiOgFYxygRTeKYDV8nwpl6Vew19C-D8iefHsu_Vi2NVWcvh_/s400/issac+2.jpg" border="0" /></a> i have another example to use as to why i don't exercise.they found isaac next to his treadmill and think he died of a stroke.it is sad,he was such an important part of memphis music history.i did get miffed when he quit south park.and i do think scientologists are way crazy and have little ability for self-deprecation.the serious scientologists.my late father installed the recording console into isaac's hi recording studio.and my dad ended up suing him,i assume because he did not pay him in full for the console.mom said that they were at a party with isaac around the time when he wore chains a lot,and that she looked across the room and saw my father standing next to isaac,who was wearing a bright green jumpsuit and lots of chains.i love this mental image.my father dwarfed by isaac hayes.i wish someone had taken a photograph of that."hot buttered soul" will remain as one of the greatest albums,ever.<br /><div></div>rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-64453020894181049682008-08-08T16:27:00.000-07:002008-08-08T16:49:35.387-07:00things i am scared of/other ramblingsdarth vader,waking up around 3am(prime paranormal activity),<br />coast to coast radio show(there is this frantic sound effect music that makes me jump),death,"a haunting" show on tlc.<br /><br />luther campbell of 2 live crew fame now has a reality show.the episode i saw last night showed him shopping for a computer program which would prevent his son from accessing any adult material on the internet.<br />oooh i loves me so 2 live crew-nasty misogynist rap is actually one of my favorite types of music-i find it entertaining and heelarious.<br /><br />i voted last night in a local election.i love my poll because it is in a senior center.i enjoy looking at the posted weekly activities or studying the bridge score cards.last night i was standing behind one of those people who think that they are very funny and entertaining.i was attempting to avoid eye contact when this person got in my face and said something that rhymed,i think it was "hey man,what's the plan?"...he then proceeded to speak entirely in rhymes with a series of utterly rhetorical questions.i was very embarrassed for him.even the 90 year old ladies collecting signatures looked up at me with a "help me" expression on their faces.while in the voting booth i heard a lady raise her voice and say to someone "you just assaulted me,look at my arm,you grabbed and assaulted me" i recognized this crazy lady as someone who i had been annoyed with in a professional situation.the poor accused 90 year old stood up and yelled in her loudest voice for this lady to leave her alone and continued to argue with the aforementioned hysterical lady.what is this world coming to?poor old lady....rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-465157139848365771.post-48649389021554530662008-08-06T17:04:00.000-07:002008-08-06T17:12:05.838-07:00the embassy<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijHNLJqb-MRjDRiwYC72X3lJgS43-RqSR-78g2TYEOISYpfexBCNVWMtiDZCwrQGmpaDhNVP5S0qTZzhGJUvcpbgB2nX6BcZI8dxoTd_UvuvD9FI_mNL5mhLflIWHuBWxArWP7KDztBjmE/s1600-h/apt.gif"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5231560189445035794" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijHNLJqb-MRjDRiwYC72X3lJgS43-RqSR-78g2TYEOISYpfexBCNVWMtiDZCwrQGmpaDhNVP5S0qTZzhGJUvcpbgB2nX6BcZI8dxoTd_UvuvD9FI_mNL5mhLflIWHuBWxArWP7KDztBjmE/s400/apt.gif" border="0" /></a> this is my new apartment building.i had only been on the waiting list for a month!i figure i will be able to pay off my bills within the first year and visit belize more often then we'll see-i may move after that.the important thing is the universe is helping me out with my goal.there are a lot of elderly people in this building,and if i feel like a perm i can just mosey on down to the beauty shop!it is a new feeling to choose a new place to live based entirely on it's proximity to work(1 mile).i did not care that it's tiny,or if it had character,or if it's in a funky neighborhood.belize threw all that out tha window.<br /><br />on a second note-i went to an estate sale(i don't go to many despite my curiosity because they always make me sad).anyway i was in a bedroom closet looking for treasures and spied this old shoebox up on the top shelf-it contained at least 20 packets of kleenex,circa 60's thru present.it was so odd that one would keep a box of mini-kleenex.maybe she was prone to tears or a runny nose.i'll never know.<br /><div></div>rump shakerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13741221154441606084noreply@blogger.com2