redneck suntan

i just wanted to document my first sun exposure since last july.it was gray at first.i just got really into the lamanai flora and fauna and thought the forest canopy would protect me.....i hope this makes yall smile.

i have 3 boyfriends

so what if they are 3,5,and 7?they are good to me!

sentiment/loss/hope

in the final episode of six feet under,as claire is leaving to move to new york,she takes a picture of the family on the front steps.nate is behind her and says "you can't take a picture of this,it's already gone."this is when i begin to cry.i find myself in a very claire fisher-like mindset regarding my recent trip to belize.as soon as the cab door closed i began to tear up and looked behind me to watch the special people i had met slowly fade into the distance.i take photographs primarily to preserve my memories,and to prove that things really happened.the last photo i took was of the cab driver's eldest child.she made me feel better because everything about her was full of hope and promise.isn't that so obvious?i think so.

beyond horror

someone made this,probably someone in taiwan,and it was being sold at gordman's for $19.99

america's next top model

i take so many pics of cleo but it was like she knew this was the real deal,her big break.she gave it all she had.prince would call her a sexy mf.you all should be aware that the only time in her life that she laid eggs(2!)was when i accidentally pushed repeat on her dvd player and she watched "purple rain" for 24 hours straight.needless to say i do not expose her to his purple majesty anymore-my bad!

ode to one of the most wonderful evenings of my life

before my trip i had been listening obsessively to the latest cat power album.those who know me are aware that this means all the time,sometimes listening to the same song all day.for days.i was enjoying my (3rd-4th?)rum punch and feeling generally optimistic and content in general about myself and the situation i was in.that being at a bar on an island looking at the ocean and listening to the end of day ramblings by the local men who came to have a drink on their way home.these ramblings being vaguely discernable to my western ears.certain words or inflections helped me to know the general topics(women,cigarettes,alcohol,fishing,offspring).i was particularly interested in one of these men who was in control of the music.i loved the reggae he had chosen:"iron,lion,zion" by marley and a group i did not recognize that had a song about "maree wa na" that i realy liked.the breeze from the sea was picking up,as i came to expect when the sun goes down.all of a sudden i recognize the familiar strains of the first chords of "ramblin woman" as interpreted by cat power and for a minute thought i was back in my sweet blue yaris jellybean car driving around memphis and it's environs but as i jerked myself back into that moment a wondrous realization of where i was washed over me.that he loved cat power and was amazed that a)i recognized that song so quickly,and,b)i loved her music.we discussed the chills we felt with her voice and how powerful and emotional her music is.my memory of the 4 guys at the bar with"i believe in you"playing and all of us in some kind of wonderful zone.i tried to impress them by imparting my love for teenie hodges and his work with all the stax and hi guys,and how he must have known my father(i am such a little shit name-dropper!)i ordered another drink and was just beginning all the happiness and pleasure and amazing moments to follow in the hours and days ahead.thank you-you know who you are.

blue

i am quite pleased with the new camera

thank you so very much

i am too sad to write that much.i am mourning for the loss of my vacation.i miss b,especially,but i also miss everyone else and the sea,the reef,aqui deli,bicycling,cokes in glass bottles,hell i even miss the daily overdosing of pink bismuth.i want to take my parrot and run back.i am having great difficulty living in the present(eckhart i'm trying!)actually i am not,i am wallowing in my beautiful memories.completely wallowing and sloshing around in them like a pig in mud.help me